睡觉 最近很喜欢睡觉，不知道是为了休息还是逃避现实。
无法控制 生活里太多的也许可能应该大概突然。
保险箱 因为试过把心交出受过伤，世界上的心渐渐住进保险箱。
走错路 当开车总是走错路时不禁怀疑人生是不是也一样。
想念你 尤其是你那句：“躲避，不一定躲得过；面对，不一定最难受”。

I tried to strike off item #9 on my to-do list. But I ended up listen to each and every album I have. the memories the people the faces – all surface up. Those are the times that I will spend my monthly pocket money on an album, all because of words that I loved.

因为爱情，我才意识到自己活在当下
就好像晴空下，总感觉自己特别清晰
每个地方日出的时间都不一样
但是醒来都一定会有阳光
不管怎样天空中至少都会有一个太阳

夸父追日
一定是为了想要更加勇敢
后羿射日
一定是因为我又不小心想起了你

[Sunrise 我喜欢] 专辑

iris brought me to Danga Bay, a place that i haven't go for quite a while since N years back despite it should be some hot spot for those who lives in JB.

it's funny to see "balls" that were floating on the water on Singapore River, now dangling on trees at Danga Bay, like this:


(do not criticize on the pictures resolution as i took the pic with my W800i which is just 2.0 mega pixels)

laughed a lot on the topic we talked abt. and justin!! lol. i don't think my brother will ever want to join me to outings like this.

p/s* i hope i can find a job soon. i don't mind having need to sponsor my bro (of coz and myself) to Desaru. hahaa.

It has been happy xmas and happy boxing, because:

i. i had a nice time being with my family on Christmas day, shopping for my dad’s new year cloth (LOL).

ii. i got xmas n birthday n friendship n you-know-what presentssss from iris. i'm like...ohmygod. i’m touched. really.

iii. i text *cfo (not that CFO) telling him i’m not going to his post-xmas gathering thing ‘coz i’m too lazy (to travel) & too tired, and he is totally fine with it instead of forcing me to go /& making me feel guilty if i’m not going.

iv. i’m approaching CIQ in JB and received my brother’s msg that says
“i w8 u at caltex..”
me: =D

v. i had a hair cut (like again?! lolx). so did mom.

vi. had a little catch up with iris about their venture in SG on xmas day. we always never get to finish our chat and it reached my home! lolx.

vii. my dad says my mom’s new hairdo is nice and cute for more than 1 time. lolx. that’s sooooo sweet.

viii. i got this 4-petals paper flower thingy from *cfs. and it’s blue color somemore. -sweeeet-. eh *lbidivo, how? the blue roses you promised – I never receive!

My mom and dad are going to send my brother and sister back to Seremban and KL respectively on the first weekend of Jan.

My mom, totally freaked out by the break-in incident a few years back, strongly oppose the idea of me staying alone at home jaga the house. -.-"

I'm given 3 options:
- go along with them to Seremban/ KL (am not really keen).
- go to SG for few days (but no place to stay).
- invite friends over to stay (but like who?! dear iris would be away as well).

So, brilliant me gonna opt to 4th option.
- will tell my mom friend will come over (but in fact no one will come) =p

I'm so garang, nothing will happen lar. At most on the light when sleeping. =]

Got this chain blog thingy from *kfooz which I'm too lazy to link.

Name 20 people whom you can think right now. Don't read the question till you've baned the 20 people. At the end choose 5 people to do the survey.

01) Min
02) Iris
03) YetShin
04) Juliana
05) Ivan
06) TeSheng
07) Bernard
08) Derick
09) Jiahui
10) Qiuli
11) Selwin
12) Ben
13) LinChin
14) A-How
15) Rei
16) Jiaying
17) Andrew
18) ShuYi
19) Bryan
20) Preston

1) How did you meet 14?
He is my primary school friend since P3 (I think). We only got to talk more and know each other better after secondary school. Had a heartily chat with him during gathering at past Saturday. Too bad he works in KL.

2) What would you do if you've never met 1?
I can’t. She is my younger sister whom I sayang a lot.

3) What if 8 and 20 dated?
I think 8’s mother will kill him..well, 20 was just a random pick from my mind (guess it’s because I just wrote on his FB wall).

4) Will 16 and 17 date?
That would not be possible because 17 is gay.

5) Describe 3.
She is a very determined and strong girl despite her soft-spoken appearance. She writes 9 like alphabet g.

6) Describe 7.
Can be super crappy and I have crown him as The Lame King. Perfectionist. Smart. Ambitious. Observant. Responsible guy who dictates his own life.

7) Do you know any of 12's family members?
I’ve seen his Dad and Mom before at his graduation ceremony.

8) What would you do if 18 confess that he/she likes you?
Not possible. She just got married recently and I couldn’t attend her banquet =(

9) Who is 9 going out with?
She’s currently dating YK (not sure if it’s officially or not). And I can be counted as half of the matchmaker – unpaid.

10) When was the last time you talked to 13?
Really long time ago.. way before fly separate way to Brisbane/ Melbourne for our undergraduate.

11) Who is 2's favorite band singer?
BSB, Westlife, 98degree. Not sure about the more recent one though.

12) Would you ever date 4?
We both are straight though none of us has a boyfriend yet. Lesbianism? no – no.

13) Would you ever date 1?
System error. I can’t date my own sister okie?!

14) Is 19 single?
According to him, he is.
According to me (by observing his conversation on phone/& sms frequency), no, he is not.

15) Would you ever be in relationship with 11?
He is a nice friend. Witty and fun to be with. But no.

16) School of 3?
SP. Foon Yu. Not sure about primary school.

17) Where does 6 lives?
Tampines. Right opposite Tampines Mall. Been there a few times for 1- Xmas celebration and 2- laptop reformatting - He fixed the laptop, I sit around and msn with friend using his computer. Hee.

18) What does 15 do?
Sales. Opps, marketing I mean.

19) What is your favorite thing of 5?
He is a camwhore; his photo collection?

20) Have you ever seen 10 naked?
I think I’ll just died. =X Of coz not!

Now link 5 people to do the survey:
Whoever is too free.
Or should I say like, it shall stop here?

I’m not sure if there is a link between nose bleed and tonsillitis.
It’s funny (my mother insists it’s worrying) to have nose bleed in the middle of the night at the middle of the sleep. I’m not even sure why because 1) I can’t possible blow my nose when I was asleep, 2) it’s definitely more than humid here in JB, so the theory of Aussie doctor that my nose bleed is due to dry weather doesn’t stand.
It’s not funny coz 1) I was so damn sleepy then, 2) there was no more packet tissue/ box tissue in my room so I have to get outta room and use toilet roll, 3) the blood stained my pillow case, bed sheet, and T-shirt =S
Anyone with any idea about profuse nosebleed? (This is the Nth episode since 2 years ago, and I think it’s the 6th in the year 2008). Send me the link can please? Thanks pretty and handsome =)


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My brother is very very evil =(
He suggested roti prata for supper while I’m having my tonsillitis.
I haven’t eat roti prata even though it’s more than 2 weeks I’m back to JB.
Sad.

To *cfs:
I guess you are so gonna slap me to the moon.
Or Mars. (But I don’t want!! Who wants to be at a planet with all digusted heterodox XY subject?!)
Last time lar okie.
Thanks –during the time of you-know-when, for -
听我说，让我哭，惹我笑，挨我骂， 被我揍
Or in short, just being there.
Thanks =)

I managed to negotiate with my sister about trading her laptop. Lolx. No, it’s not for good. The deal only lasts till her CNY holiday which is less than 1 month from now.

Hers
Laptop

Mine
Camera
Dress (for her school department night)
Books (include Who Moves My Cheese and The Little Prince)

So you see, if she is taking away her laptop as well, I will be very, very bore =(
At least now I still can watch some shows on laptop, do some photoshop when I feel like it, write, or surf the net, should I –ahem- able to leech other people’s network. (shhh… =X)

With she is gonna be in Penang for less than 3 weeks (and in one of the weeks she will be traveling to Taiwan), I strongly believe she can endure this short period of no computer. After all it was truly well-tolerated when I brought this laptop to Aussie for 10 months *evil wink*.

Thanks sis. I shall use this time to marathon all the movies I grabbed from friends. You too enjoy Taiwan okie, do take more picture with my camera!! =D

My brother uses this song as his message alert ringtone. Given his popularity, this song successfully becomes my ear bugs as his phone rings 6 times per minutes (in average).

This is not a new song. Indeed, I think it was released more that 5 years ago when I was still in secondary school. It amuses me ‘coz I never know my brother listen to –ahem- oldies.

Some of the excerpt that I manage to catch:

Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really, really do.

Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there’s only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

So we were letting off of something special
Something we’ll never have again
I know, I guess I really, really know

Why do we never know what we’ve got till it’s gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
‘Coz I’ve been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

Human nature – we never know what we’ve got till it’s gone. Then you regret. But you would be able to carry on.

The second time i took ferry and travel beyond SouthBank. High chance it will be the last time as well.

But it's ironic that, the companion i had last time when we took ferry (for sightseeing) till Bulimba Ferry Station.. we dun talk anymore.

Speechless.

1. *cfs asked what is that something that we will miss most when we got back home.
i rather not think about it. i will know the answer when i get back home. after this 1 year living by myself , it comes to me that it might be a bit dumb to think about assumptive scenario.
though i will still, somehow somewhat get myself landed in those think-too-much-scenario. used to be quite often somemore.. hehee =p
okie, im dumb what. bo bian.

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2. "Close friend can downgrade to gd friend....Gd friend can downgrade to acquaintance"

the above is someone's nick that he once accuse me of 'feeding him on glass' (LOL!)
i know he is not talking about me lar (paranoia kicks in??)..
but i wonder, acquaintance.. still can further downgrade?

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3. as i slowly strolled back home from UQ, i realize there is so many memories here in Aussie/ Brisbane. be it good or bad, happy or sad, i grow up from them. although MANY years down the road, i may not remember a single thing. it's ironic coz the more experience u have in life, the more u tend to forget.
i think there is a song name called memories are designed to fade.

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4. i finished a (little stupid) taiwanese drama in 2 days. kindda bo liao. ohmygod. i start to detest not that likey those drama.

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5. i was telling my friend about No. 4 and she hissed.
"coz u oledi forget the feeling of being kissed or being held hand lar thats' why..."
=.=""
what de...

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6. not that im really that emotionless okie.
i still feel strong when i see words that touch people's heart, still cry when i listen to songs / watch MV.
but look, these sides cant be easily seen by others. one should try to (act) strong in world like this.

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7. December, love it hate it.
it symbolizes the end of (another) year.
it's also a joyous season with xmas and boxin day and new year.
and i can sleep in =)
i hope to. ha..

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8. i decide i will think about point No. 1 on flight back to SG. or during the 3 hours wait at the airport. whichever is more sianz.

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9. *boesfx is actually trying to find something to do getting his schedule arranged for Valentine's '09.
-faintz-. that is wayyyy too early lar. a lot of stuff can change.. sometimes even if just after 1 week.

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10. i was telling *cfs that i wana 'chop away the ox horn corner' (斩断牛角尖).
then with my very creative imagination, i figured ox without horn (or half chopped horn), is really very very poor creature..
shall keep the action of 'chop away ox horn corner' in KIV folder first.

as most ppl scared of thunder, i'm more afraid of lightning =(
and it is worse got in that 1/100 s, it seems like the power supply in unit 5X manors is being affected a little and become a little dim in that 1/100 s.
gzzz. just let it pour at once and get over with it can? please?

oh my god, i cant believe i spend hours writing. =(

i spend my night at juu's after her birthday celebration. (in case you are wondering, no, it's not that i'm avoiding kjbivj*. but yes, i i dunno how to face her. one may argue that IS avoiding, well, i think i just need to find some courage to face all this). we talked about various friendship/ relationship issues that we faced in our life before during meal. somehow i wish i am at least half garang as ivanny, since it is almost impossible for me to master the 'good tactic' thingy, even though with that it is portraited as tough/ not feminine (and with high possibility of being place at the losing end). oh well, i guess that's human nature for protect/ shield the look-like- weaker side.

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ivanny said he chooses his friends.
did i carefully choose? i mean, if i categorized you as friend (BFF or close friend or good friend or just friend), that means i trust you.
in cases like that, can i say i just had my trust and believe misplaced? will that make me feel better?

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i slept at 4+am last night.
i thought that i was so tired i can really sleep on and forget about all those hurting stuff (period).
alas, i woke up at 9plus. (-_-"" its kindda dumb to feel sad and unable to sleep, can someone tell my body/ mind that?)
i turned around and grab my phone and read this msg from iris on 19th oct:

十句值得深思的话：
1。 没有一百分的另一半， 只有五十分的两个人。

2。 付出真心才会得到真心， 却也可能伤得彻底，保持距离就能保护自己， 却也注定永远寂寞。
-- that's why there is this saying, distance is beautiful.

3。 通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人，才是真正爱你的人。
-- that's why we seems to be friend (probably not to the extent to BFF, but at least it's friend), turn out it's onewide wishful thinking of mine.
-- still wana talk about true friend? go away, it's too much fake and i dunno who to believe.

4。 有时候不是对方不在乎你，而是你把对方看得太重。
-- yea, and that is dumb.

5。 冷漠，有时候并不是无情，只是一种避免被伤害的工具。
-- this is what i think would be useful to master and will try to master. since the 'good tactic' is so out of my reach.

6。 如果我们之间有1000步的距离，你只要跨出第一步，我就会你的方向走其余的999 步。
-- it feels more sad coz instead of walking towards, u walk backwards. so now there is.. 2million steps?

7。 为你难过而快乐的人是敌人， 为你快乐而快乐的人是朋友，为你难过而难过的就是那些该被放进心里的人。
-- i dont know which to categorized u.

8。 就算是believe, 中间也藏了一个lie。
-- how true. it's stupid to trust and believe. relate to No3 point #2.

9。 真正的朋友，并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题，而是在一起就算不说话也不会感到尴尬。
-- she doesnt understand this. and she will never do. she think that this happened too often and that i am still thinking about what happened last time and bear grudge against her. i thought my paranoia is kindda serious. well, hers is kind of acute as well.
-- i cry, i miss iris and ms za bo.

10。 情人就是被你看透了还能喜欢你的人。


i dozed off again after reading the msg.

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woke up at 10:19am
half of my mind is telling me this is nothing. i just need to learn to open my eyes wide wide (when it comes to choosing friend) and close my ear tight tight for the unnecessarily gossip/ words/ accuse etc.
another half tell me it's so hard to conquer all this.
it's not fair to tell all to juu or ivanny about them coz they know the leads in these stories and will lead to biasness.
then again i dowan to be laughed at by far-away friend like tesheng =( i can forsee he will scold me stupid, tell me to get over it, and just stay away from them.

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on the way home from juu's i past by summerfield.
how ironic. i guess i wasnt careful enough and really think it over who is really 'at fault' for conflict and dispute that happened last semester. who was the root of all these dispute? although i dont agree with how tbcsjob* spreading words and gossip like wild fire (which i was truly very angry at that time), now i think back, she was wrong in that sense, but then again.. she is not the root.. confused? i dunno what am i talking either. skip this paragraph please.

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i walked pass the UQ logo thingy at the roundabout near my home.
how ironic. i wonder how would it be during graduation. will i be wearing the fake smile? take photo for the sake of take photo, smile for the sake of smile?
i wana puke.

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those who declare they are not taking side, can i ask, do you really feel so?
u think u nv take side.. but did u, unintentionally do so?
i mean, not to take side is so hard. especially when u're in it, u wont even aware.

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did i mention i feel hungry yesternight while playing bluff? that was abt 3plus?
i should have just eat something damn.
now i dun feel like eating even if it's 1pm.
ha, dont have to go for intensive jogging session to lose weight already.

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she knows that i care about all this relationship/ friendship stuff to the max.
and if they are wrecked, basically my life sort of go hay wire (can i blame my lousy grade in pharmacology to the semester 1 incident with her and tbcsjob*?)
and in sem 2 i used to think all are okie thus the far better result.
i reckon that is their kind gesture to only open up what has been bottled up now after exam? else dunno how many 4 i will get again?
although it's dumb that i never learn from the one bitten twice shy saying, (in same one year by this same person-- oh, different group of people), i grow up from that.
so this is what people call life. all i can say is that it's because all the friends that i met in my primary/ secondary or even poly, all are very nice. i used to thought it is a blessing, then again, it leads me totally inexperienced in these kind of issues.
it's a blessing to have them all still.
but it is not a bless coz u landed up as a big dumb.

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when i choose not to talk about it to common friends, it's because i think it's not fair to the subject(s). and to talk behind him/ her without him/ her being there, people can only hear one-sided story and lead to biasness. not very fair eh? (except if u tell people that they confirm chop wont know the person(s) you are talking about and is rationale enough).
that to me, is backstabbing already. luckily the wound is not able to be seen. i dowan unsightly back =S

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i am emotionally weak.
i admit.
i dare to admit.
but this will be the last entry about this incident. friend or not, it doesnt matter. to quote her, it's irreversible. it's just that it's again very dumb for me to know this so late.. it's like u are doing some sort of experiment in the lab and only towards the very end then u are told that the reaction is irreversible and it wont work.

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i promise.
i'll be fine i'll be fine i'll be fine.
i will just need to be back to my shell.
will be fine.

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i really wana laugh off all this stupid stuff lor.
so un-nutritious.

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gentle and soft spoken

or

true to yourself?

the previous seems to be a good tactic!

and it IS a good tactic.

let's master that.

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i dunno if this is coincident or not. haih, not like i wana be so into horoscope. see this:

Your horoscope for November 26, 2008

Creative sparks fly and an old friend will accuse you of following the wrong path. If a person is not level with you today, it is an indication of how far you have grown apart, and not a reflection of your character. Stand your ground.

now i have done:
-photo compilation
-assignments and notes compilation

i will:
-send resume (!!!)
-visit lab pass over my samples
-get recommendation letter from Dr Neena and Dr Ralf

and i will be going to:
-visit museum
-visit art museum in UQ
-continue photo taking session in UQ
-city photo-taking
-botanical garden
-roma street park
*all must go even if have to go alone!

ALL within this 2 weeks!
yes yes! i cant wait. just like i cant wait to lay my feet in SG/JB and have roti prata!

我覺得人跟人之間很多事情的出發點最重要的就是出自於信任
不管是合作或是相處，都是建立在信任之上的~
所以說當破壞了信任了，被傷害或是知情的人都一定會對這個人的誠實大打折扣
要挽回別人的信任也是很辛苦的一件事


-- taken from wanwan's 信任之塔

i bought a snowball from Christchurch. totally in love with it.
hope i will have chance to visit that city that country soon.
better still, during winter. =)

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result's out when i was still in Christchurch.
i'm totally surprise that Dr Ralf graded a 7 for my Intro to Research. i mean like, he was so strict and really demand a lot okay? (recall N times changes to my poster). anyway, i did really learn a lot in his lab - not just technical skill but soft skills as well. i truly enjoy the time during the intro to research times and i hope the feeling is mutual.

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i smuggled 2 huge pine seeds back to brisbane (and of coz will smuggle them back to singapore and malaysia as well).
shhh....

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i'm gonna be so broke after the trip.
oh please bless me with endurance and self control power over useless/unnecessary spending.
haih.

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been packing stuff (and room) for the past 1 hour or so and suddenly the feeling is gone.
so my room is in a TOTAL mess.
no visitor please. thank you.

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　"you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
　　　and others just read of and if you could see now
　　　well I'm almost finally out of words"

--- you&i both

super addictive - though this song is quite some times back.
oh, another 2 more hours i will stop playing this song. promise.

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hungry.
i miss roti prata (again!).

coincidentally, i received this from one of my friends in taiwan who is absolutely into astrology and she did a reading based on my birth chart.

由于您有月亮与冥王星合相，因此心思细腻、敏感度高，好奇心强，喜欢探索事物的真象,并且发挥既有的想象力和创造力。但也因为如此，您有强烈的自我保护色彩，不容易轻易显露真实的欲望或情绪。您可以和人相处融洽，沟通顺畅，因为您会用其他方式来保护或隐藏内在真正的自己。只有真正熟识的朋友，才可以感受到您强烈情感与情绪化的那一面。

so, you ever see me being emotion or pms-sy? congrats! you are my real friend! LOL!
welcome to leave anytime also. hehee.

Your horoscope for November 26, 2008

Today is a good day to ground your fluctuating emotions. Take a step back from the drama and make some serious evaluations of your inner state. Are you trying to trick yourself into thinking everything is ok when really all you are doing is fooling yourself? Be honest with your highest truths and ground yourself back down into reality. Make a journal entry of your thoughts.

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The above is the horoscope reading for today. Indeed, the NZ trip lead me into a lot of thinking (through this trip i know a lot more about something someone) - and thus the fluctuating emotions.

This particular entry is about this friend of mine that i only got to know better in this semester, lifoh*. All i can say is that to him, my feel for him (for now) can be concluded as one word - disappointment.

I'm very well aware that he might seen this post - which i think soon i will get this blog shifted - but since it is MY blog so i will write down what i really think in the inner state. I did try to fool myself that oh-since-we-are-still-talking-everything-is-fine, but deep down i know it is not fine.

For the first few times i get to talk to him, and later get to know each other better, i always thought that he is someone truthful - not to say that he is not, but i guess our definition to being truthful is very different. For those friends that i'm really close to (you know who you are), i truly appreciate the way we hold our friendship - being truthful, and if there is dispute, speak out and we sorted them out. I think i am truly foolish enough to think that such fine balance also happen between lifoh* and i. And i just got to know like, 48 hours before that in almost all of the time that i think nothing major/ dramatic is going on, he would rather think otherwise. too many instances. too many of those tiny litte itsy-bitsy thingy that i wouldn't even know that he actually feel unhappy with until ms ubo* pointed out - i would not want to spare my time elaborating them.

And in contrary, for those events/ actions that i truly felt provoke, i will make sure he gets to know (for that is the truly feeling) and i would not really carry them with me so deeeep down (oh of course i will still talk about it some of the times - you know, those forgiven-not-forgotten trait).

I was telling ms ubo* that i would rather not to defence or explain anymore for i really see no point in doing that. if a relationship (be it friendship or bgr) started off in such a wrong way that both parties actually have different expectations in return, there is really no point. yes, probably both of us are giving up in trying to make things work better. yes, there may be no turning back. and yes, there is nothing but disappointment. there is this saying, expectations always comes with disappointment. so there it is. Some may argue i should accept people's personality. But since i got to choose my own clique, why should i choose those i find hard to understand (with possibility that i might never get to understand)? I mean, it's not that i'm not being acceptive - i accept who you are and it works both way. if not, let's just stay hi-bye.

A lot of thinking running through my head while car/ flight journey (oh well thinking alot is evil? whatever.) Whatever it is, the another side of me is telling me that all is over 'coz i would kiss brisbane goodbye in less than one month time. it started off here and it ends here. perfect eh?

Some people may think that i'm being too extreme. yes, most of the time i am. in the ideal word of mine, correct means correct, wrong means wrong. black is black and white is white. there is no grey area and i always hate grey area. yes i may be too childish in there, but i may wish to stay as this like The Little Prince. i deny the hypocrisy of adulthood.

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Oh back to reality, tonnes of laundry, tonnes of email, tonnes to to-do. bleh. i'm gonna be so busy for the next few days.

because today is such a good day (& what you did, did not bring me down).

i'm movin' on.

heck.
it's been raining since.. yesternight? wet and cold. i hate. wet especially. ha.

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so many things to do yet so little time =(
shall procrastinate no more.
start with photos compilation!

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i'll be away for Christchurch, NZ from coming wed till next tue.
hope i get to access internet!

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roti prata and teh tarik.
(what were you thinking?!)

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ohmygod what are they doing in the living room?!
what's with that sound?
what's with that giggles?

*imagination runs REALLY wild*
aiyo mr lifnoh* and ms hpi*, should inform me first so i can pretend i'm still sound asleep ;p
or should that be done when i was at Ju's the night before!
XD hahaa~

they are still "not sure" lar. give them privacy.
all of us (cfs*, ubo*, tfmxjo* and others) will be so happy so see them together.
cfs*! we shall bet!!
ok off to bed and continue pretend to sleep.

spend most of my day time talking to myself inwardly. yea inwardly.
spend most of my night time taking to other (not-physically in brisbane) friends/ families through phone.
so other than that, don't feel like talking/entertaining ler.
does this kind of feeling occur to you before?
to guest-
please self-entertain.

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was talking to ms mjodijo* just now and we discussed about this.
-innocent until proven guilty, or guilty until proven innocent- inspire by FF.
sadly (anot?), i'm now belong to the clan of guilty until proven innocent.
i guess when people grows older there comes the lack of ability to trust people. consequence of repeated hurt, betrayal etc?
that is why sometimes we need faith like a child. although it is so not possible unless you have dementia or accident involve hippocampus. ha.

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is it because of pluto or the weather?
now even mr optimistic ain't optimistic =/

the time now is 3A.M and i cant really sleep. stress? nah. more like being furious! anyway im gonna try on the scheduled-post thingy. so i guess this will be out on tmr, 10.30A.M.

was talking to lifnoh* and cfs* on msn juz now. very very -__-" the conversation is sort of un-nutritious (as in now it's exam period). and there are some issues that lifnoh* and i have different stands. anyway, shall not elaborate much here as it's not sth happy/ nice. gzz.

on a happier note, i finally got my (new) student card! finally its because i spend almost 2 hour waiting (and walking back and fro from bld 69 -.-"). in another word almost 2 hours are gone and not study. super waste time. luckily i din ask ms hpi*or lifnoh* to go together. else waste so much time i guarantee ms hpi's face will turn green (as i said now it's almost exam time and she SURE keep thinking not enough time and time is preeeecious, shall talk abt it later). anyway back to the topic of the card, i think it jinx a little coz i have to enrol in some course (for my case, coz im not doing hons, i enrol in summer course). SUPER JINX ok?! gzz.

abt the topic of no-more-time, i think ms hpi* is sort of pissed when the devb discussion is push till tmr coz qmzo* was doing skyping with her sister back home. although when i asked her she say she 'is ok'. but according to pass experience, she is not lor! it's just that whether this time round will she tell other ppl abt how we spoilt her study plan -.-" (recall last semester to ms tbc*). that's why there are time i very hesitate to tell her those plan which is categorized as 天外一笔. and thing is, when i ask, she always say ok. and turn around being not ok. super ^#&$%^*@. (then again, its not that im okie with a lot of 天外一笔 stuff as well, it just that if i think i cant/ dont wish to go then i wont go - unless being forced! gzz.) i treasure the moment with ms ubo*, although there are times i think she is being very naggy/ noisy (=p), but we always terus-terang when there is an issue. i mean, if there is any, come and tell me straight to my face! gzz.

my supervisor emailed me and say he submitted my marks for SCIE3012. ohmygod, why was he telling me that?! like i can persuade him to change it to a better grade?! gzz.

now i feel better after these rantings (with all the lousy language and grammar) - with the risk this being see by others. who cares?! (okie, as in now, i might feel guilty and delete this tmr lol. posting up these things really pollute my blog and also make ppl hard to justify abt those ppl u are talking abt). gzz.

大清早就被楼下割草机 （吸草机？）的声音吵醒，
窗外的天被一层层厚厚的云覆盖，
仿佛在预言着这是个不适生产的一天。=（

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昨夜的雨该把我的黄色小道给蹂躪了吧？
想象满地遍野的花瓣尸体，
我竟然难过起来。

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该怎么形容我和 LI先生* 的关系呢？
普通朋友？好像稍稍多过吧？
饭友？ 那该一年前吧？我现在的饭友主要是 HPI小姐*。

我们都没开口那个玩意，别人都说我们之间的关系，应该多过只是互相关心； 旁人 OH先生* 看得也都快急死了。
我们从没有正视那个问题，就像无解的是非题， 让人伤透脑筋；
就像易碎的陶瓷艺术，深怕一不小心把它捏碎，然后被其割伤。

对于感情，我很少持悲观态度，除了这次！我是怎么了？？
想到回去要面对的他&/ 问题，忽然12月10日の回家~ 也没那么令人向往了。
是城市生活让我们都怯于勇敢面对感情吗？
爱，真的需要勇气。

（*化名）

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这篇用华文。
华文华语比较不行的朋友！对，我绝对是故意的。
既然不能用密码封锁，我也只能使出杀手锏了-语文杀手锏。 总不能用日文吧？再说我的日语说真的也没那么强。

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你有吗？不曾兑现的诺言。

GOOD LUCK TO IVANNY WHO IS GONNA HAVE HIS FOOD MICROBIOLOGY 1 PAPER TOMORROW!

see ivanny, i'm very 够朋友 right?! hehee~

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im so so slow in revision -.-"
spend almost one week in that seemingly harmless molgene -.-""
if im gonna take another week for developmental molecular mechanism, will i have time for ecology of disease then?
oh god, please bless me with wisdom in effective time management. -amen-

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dear iris,
sorry i think i will need some time in getting u a shout box in your blog.
-slap myself-
do u need that urgently? let me know ok?

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i shall 闭关修炼 again. like what i did during molgene mid sem exam last time.
like some of the people do. ;)

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ju~ mentioned in her blog abt introverts should drink alcohol and extroverts should drink coffee before exams.
that's why im finishing my last bottle of heineken.
aiya, i am introvert what. cannot meh?
but again, ju, why is that so? i think u told me before but i cant remember! =X must be the alcohol lar. i hope i dun have the associate risk factor gene as taught by peter dodd. hmm, sth to do with DRD2 A1 and B1 allele?
oh shit. cant remember. =(

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i called home.
my mom ordered me to eat well and rest well.
shall obey her today by sleeping at 11pm. right after this entry.
hee~

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i called my sister. she's having her first paper on monday. sth to do with highway (?)
okie, she's studying civil engineering ok?!

i then called my brother, who will be having his first paper on monday also (!!). the subject is fluid power.
he's studying mechatronic engineering.

haiya, everyone starts so early. i wana join the crowd ler.
if only i can shift either 12th/ 13th paper to monday. =/

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again, good luck to all who is starting exam tmr/ monday. you know who u are, right? *grinz*


ciao~

bet

ms tan and i juz decided on a bet regarding ms goh's indecisiveness on her too-good-to-be-true offer.

i hope i will win! hahaa~ ;)

this 2 KB friends of mine:

K one call me fat (肥) ,
B one call me old (like born in 1981).

WIN ALREADY LOR!

$@#^%$&%^*$&%^#

super grumpy.

it's so expensive.
i mean the printing service here in UQ.
i miss the days in SP where i print back and white for 1 cent per page, and (i think) =<20 cents for color printing.
today, i spend ~4 bucks in total for colour printing =S
that's the value for a meal (small size) in physio refac can?
oh, u will still have 80 cents change back.

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ivanny previous blog mentioned everything almost/ going to die on him.
*recall my suey days N years back* (when i was still studying in SG)
-- hp lost + the one and only cordless phone spoiled + modem kena lightening thus spoiled + alarm clock decide to commit suicide + TV screen only shows black and white without warning + lamp starter don't work + computer finally become permanently paralysed--
and that spoiled modem didn't really affect me much 'coz the computer died on me the next couple of days.
super black super suey. i hope this kind of bad luck wont befall me or my families or my friends.
*bad luck bad luck go away*


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finally i've done with SCIE3012 =D

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6 more weeks and i'll be home!~
**home S-W-E-E-T home**

By end of this week....

by end of this week (24/10/2008), i will throw away all the hard copies of journal articles/ review papers i have for intro to research/ molgene assignment/ devb assignments.

and im going to release stress before study week starts on 27 oct, which means i only have either sat or sun! where i can either cam-whore/ idle or messing ard/ do some shopping window shopping or doing just nothing!

oh gosh, im so so so looking forward =]

Personality test:

在寒冷的空氣中，毛線會帶來溫暖的感覺，要是收到別人親手編織的毛線衣，更是幸福一路到底的心情。
你會希望收到以下那種色彩的毛線衣呢？



Ａ－綠色
Ｂ－咖啡色
Ｃ－粉色或紅色系
Ｄ－白色或米白色系






＊ 測 驗 分 析

選擇Ａ的人
你是個冷靜取勝的人，在你心裡，認為有理走遍天下，當有狀況發生時，你首先會壓抑怒氣，
努力向對方說理，把事情是非交代清楚。這是你處理衝突的方法，但有時秀才也會遇到兵，碰
上無理取鬧的人，有理也說不清時，那你可就會怒火中燒，儘快離開現場。


選擇Ｂ的人
你平時是有話就說的人，因此當有人惹到你時，你也不會是忍氣吞聲的角色，尤其是對方沒理
卻還敢大小聲，那就會立即點燃你不甘示弱的火氣，先發一頓脾氣是常態，給對方一點下馬威
，宣示不是軟腳蝦的立場，雙方面紅耳赤的場面你也不會懼怕，反正有理你一定要爭到底，直
到對方說對不起才罷休。


選擇Ｃ的人
當你和他人意見相左時，其實你不見得會生氣，要引爆你的脾氣火藥庫，除非是對方欺人太甚，
尤其是採取欺騙你的手段，把黑說成白，最後要是被你發現，那事情可就大條了，這會讓你想要
翻臉，徹底戳穿對方的假面具；就算你考慮其他因素，隱忍沒當場發作，以後再也不會信任曾欺
騙你的人了。


選擇Ｄ的人
要引爆你的脾氣導火線，是一件不簡單的任務，因為你生氣時，其實也不會當眾動怒，你寧願一
個人默默生悶氣，也不想說出來，更不要說當場發飆罵人，失去了你的風度，但是你難看的臉色
，還是向所有看到你的人，用ＳＮＧ宣告了非常不爽的心。


** i chose c. yes i hate it when ppl lies.
what about u?

wahaha~

friends ber and yk are trying to find my blog! nv they know ben actually link me in his blog!
wahaha..
leave me a comment if you all find me! yes i challenge you all!!
*evil grin*

to ms hpi*

because today is such a good day (& what you did, did not bring me down).

i'm movin' on.

yawnz-

there is another 2 more. yea i mean assignments. 40% and 20% each.
i dun think i can hold it any longer. i needda relax. and sleep. food? nar. not in my priority now. anything that makes me feel full will do.

-yawnz, yawnz

Angry with yourself

do that happened to you before?

i spend more than an hour hanging clothes just now. given my -ahem- efficacy, i usually spent less than 15 minutes for that ~10 pieces clothes.

my friend once commented that he feel really lousy if he accidentally placed his favourite white shirt with clothes that color will run. that never happened to me 'coz i always segregate light color clothes and dark color one when it comes to laundry.

but i feel really ^$%&^%* when i forgot to check if there is TISSUE left inside pocket (which i forget to take it out) before i put that piece of cloth into WASHING MACHINE. that happened to me just now when i get my dark color clothes washed and about 1 hour later when the machine beep and i open the lid and realise......

THERE IS TINY BITS OF WHITE TISSUE EVERYWHERE!

i cant help but swear lor coz it's a basket of DARK COLOR CLOTHES. and hor, the washing machine in manors is so powerful i guess it really SPIN your clothes. can imagine the tissue bits are so tiny that it's like dandruff on dark color clothes =S

so i spend like forever trying my very best to pick out/ pat off the tiny white thingy off all most of my dark color clothes. how can i forget to check?! it's not the first time already.

if that never happened i could have finished hanging my clothes in less than 15 mins and continue my drama and even get some eye-shut and continue my DEVB group assignment and look through it again before i continue on my intro to research report.

sibeh angry with myself.

this was quite some times back:



I HEART MY ANGELS


it's the battle time now: very little time, a lot of works =(
plus exams around the corner, double =((
(oh yea, i think my sad face curve can reach my kneecap, LOL!)


however, it is always nice to have friends who are encouraging/ funny and hilarious (makes me laugh heartily/ [insert good points]

or some you just know they will be there for you no matter what happened.


eg, my msg with ben earlier on msn:

it was damn hilarious when he talked about the forehead thingy XD in fact, i laughed so hard that im awake from my long boring DEVB3002 assignment. how boring? extremely. see the background? all about HS, GATA1, EKLF and other TFs that i cant remember off hand. oh yea, did i mention this is not the worst? evo-devo is. with *take deep breath* metazoan-bilaterian-echinoderm-iophotrochozoan-deuterostome-ecdysozoan-arthropod-chordate-cnidarian-opisthokont-annelid-mollusc-choanoflagellate. *panting* only heard about annelid and mollusc and arthropod before evo-devo classes. and this is yet the complete monophyly of the metazoa =S oh did i mention the parazoa or perifora? dunno what is it? well, it is commonly known as SPONGE.



next, i opened my mailbox 3 days ago and discovered this:



i use "discovered" coz im really, really surprise!

it was from my dear Iris who we got to know each other since P1 (and yes our friendship last until now!)

very encouraging especially during battle time like now!

i'll see you in less than 3 months time babe!! miss you LOADS!

another eg, friend Eilen from church made me (and my housemates) carrot cakes and send them to us *appreciate* as expected, it was nicely baked and suuuuuper delicious.

but im really very very bad with taking food picture =p



lastly, whenever i look at my mobile phone, i'll see this:

presented from my dear lovely sister!

oh my gawd, im so blessed to have you all! whether near or far, whether i mention your name or not in this entry, you know you have a place in my heart! I LOVE YOU GUYS! i heart you all as friend and family =)

I HEART MY ANGELS.

LOL

DEVB3002 take home exam - submitted! eeehoo!~~
weird thing is, i copied and paste (most of the) answers from text book! and turnitin only detects 12% similarity. and that includes the reference and questions!

my pharmacology assignment 1 semester ago - also 12% similarity. and i WROTE THAT MYSELF.

i might as well just copy and paste lor.
LOL

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS

hmm, i left a comment on ivanny's exam dates out!!, trying to persuade myself although my exam time table sucks (like BIOL3002 on 10th 2.30pm, DEVB3002 on 12th 11.15am and BIOC3003 on 13th 2.30pm -- the last 2 papas are well-known killer paper).. at least my assignments-submission-due-date-list is somewhat shorter.

then i realise, it's really not just about how long/ short is the list. it's the weightage of each piece of the assignments that matters.

DEVB3002 take home exam due this coming Friday (20%). DEVB3002 literature review due next Friday (30%) -- which means, if i could score this 2 pieces, i will have -ahem- better life for my final exam.
the question here is, IF since the take home exam is really the standard of take-home-exam ie super hard and can't seems to find relevant good resources, and for the assignment, my group mates don't seem to have enough.. chemistry? to keep the work flow going smooth =S
talking about group assignment, i start to miss Mr Satoshi already. an excellent group member i would say.

BIOC3003 literature review (20%, due 24th oct). i think i will continue my last min style of work for this piece of assignment. looked through the calendar and it's like just don't have time (unless i don't sleep). seriously, i admire those who can don't sleep/sleep very little while still able to get their brain functioning. for my case, if i just stay through the night and force myself to work in front of computer, usually (1) i will doze off in front of the computer irregardless how much junk food i eat just to coax myself to stay awake, or (2) the piece of assignment end up really cannot-make-it with typo all around the place, english that doesn't flow, weird grammar, etc.
tried and tested. recall my pharmacology assignment (marks: 19/30). hmphhh.

lastly, intro to research poster (30%) on 17th oct and final report (40%). NOTHING has been done so far for intro to research. sweat.

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!!
only by finishing all the assignments i'll be able to switch my focus to course work and start revising for exams.

random random

not that i don't want to belive lar, but i think the daily horoscope thingy from Keen Horoscope are bloody accurate loh.

for eg, on 19th Sept, it says:
"Navigating through sabotage
Ignore the pettiness and move forward. Their drama will ultimately favor you. "

(that is the week whereby the drama-yve having all her drama and link me into it. =S so boliao. and i shall not pollute my blog with her nasty words).


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i slept at 2am this morning with EOD assignment around 80% done.
the first sun ray that wakes me up - it's so bright i cant go back to sleep. that was 7am.
i turned around and saw little orange furry ball, starring at me.

*see how u gonna sleep with im starring at u*

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*EOD EOD EOD*

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alright then i was awake. EOD? be it eod bod or eoa. i just hate to do assignments. i mentioned i rather go for exam, didn't i?

(oh well, there is chance that i might wana take this back. though chances are very slim. but must save some 后路).

then i actually start a dumb round of cam-whoring with all the soft toys won from EKKA.

eg sth like that:

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or something like that:

oh well i know lar this is so bo liao.

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i think im so crazy.
i actually feel DOWN after submit my EOD assignment at 2.50pm.
im so pervert.

Statistically...

Statistically...

i vaguely remember that once i did this statistic during the boring Biostatistics class on the frequency i blog (that is, when i was still using multiply for blogging).

and the statistics showed that it was during exams/ assignments submission periods that marked the peak of my blogging frequency.

and i guess that still holds true! lol..

how many more assignments before i can truly enjoy mid-sem break? i wouldnt even dare to count!

back to EOD assignment. ciao!

ohmygod...

...how did it get to the-twenty-something of September in just a blink??

"terlajak kata tak boleh undur"

ok lar i know it's a bit late but i dont follow news happened back in malaysia/singapore mar.. haha paisei..

so, this Bukit Bendera Umno chief Datuk Ahmad Ismail (dunno who exactly) had said something nasty to the Chinese community. (no need to search for that lar). anyway my personal view is that since it was the merdeka month and thus racist remark as such shouldnt have been made..and i somewhat think that Tun Mahathir's blog (see here) is somewhat not that appropriate (some statements are wrong eg #9 coz im so sure wee meng chee apologized.. and also he isnt even -ahem- pemimpin.. anyway let's not side track). i'm somewhat can't help but think Tun Mahathir is not happy with Pak Lah's performance, but i wonder if it ever occur to him that it is exactly his own styles of governing that lead to the -ahem- politic situation now in Malaysia (eg the Anwar case). My personnal view is that there should not be ONE single leader that lead tooooooooo long. hahaa =X And in this incident, i personally think that he shouldnt have to publish such post.. it was like add oil to the burning fire.. a bit dumb.. and i somewhat think he is trying to create another round of racist issue and interfere with the politics.. haiz. i somewhat think probably he is too free after retirement..

anyway my persoanal point of view is that it is the person who responsible should apologize, not the PM/party. he is the leader and he should have those critical thinking skill and justify what should be said and what should not. being insensitive is the one main thing that some of the leaders always intentionally or unintentionally do, creating rounds and rounds and chaos.. in fact, i think they are having fun out of it -.-"

im not sure but i think the more i explore other countries (whether physically or just discussing with other people from other countries i met), (and uncontrollably compare that to my own country), the more i think things could be better since we are self-claim we are 'berbilang kaum' (which means multi racial). races aside, we are all malaysian. how i wish it somewhat turn into a better place to live in (politically and economically peace and harmony), as oppse for most of my friends say "wah u in sg/aussie now?? dont come back lar! malaysia no hope ald!"

which is like so sad can? after all it is the place where my darah tumpah-ed. even if im in sg/aussie, i still dunno how to sing their national songs ok!


p/s* i must again emphasize that all the statements in this post are based on MY OWN PERSONAL VIEW (as u can see there is a lot of "somewhat" and "personally"). u could have different opinion, that's fine. i'm very into human rights one ;) but dun sue me lar. im poor student who, if u sue me, i'll sure lose the law suit coz i got no $ to hire lawyer! lolx

p/p/s* anything written in here don't necessarily represent what i in the future. hmm, yea. that's it.

我的月亮天蠍日

情緒：尊嚴很受傷的日子, 很沒章法的兩天半。


事件：像聽到人家形容我的某個行為很像我很討厭的个性，當場聽到害我覺得很受辱而介意得不得了，想窮究到底哪裡像而更狼狽不堪。又有一次是我跟人聊天，談到一個曾經欺負過我的人，我的內心當然是滿腹委屈，但不知情的朋友居然說那個人是好人這種話，聽得我又開始不舒服，若他是好人，那我是什麼呢？活該嗎？反正，這真是很挑戰自我、黑暗面充斥的。

i finally insert a chat box in this blog.
the html stuff to insert a chat box is still quite an easy stuff for me.
although i still dunno how to add the title and allow comment thingy..
bleh.

quite a lot of things happened recently. a bit complicated to blog it down 'coz it involves the degree of details which is hard to justify. somemore all parties i know one. tsk tsk. what de. i said i wana be low profile le.

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din manage to do anything at all for THE SECOND DAY already =( so unproductive. i hate. all because i spend too much time thinking abt the incidence i mentioned above. stupid lar. not like got any kind of resolution.

and its f***ing NONE OF MY BUSINESS except i know all of the people that involved!

so? no 'SO' lar. to quote ~ju's Stupid Brain. I want a new one! I also want a new one! one that is a little more self-centred *a-hem* and dont-care-too-much-dont-think-too-much abt what's not your concern.

tsk tsk. i want a new brain also.

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since i got no mood for study and assignment, i went to lab more often and do research hahaa.
but when back home can do what? i also dunno...
end up read news and read blog only. hahaa.
aiyo. other people's story again.
*dun be influnced dun be influenced dun be influenced*
**else slap slap slap slap slapppppp!!**

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I think the main reason to my grouchiness these days, besides the fact that my brains are fried, is that I am losing faith.
I used to be so hopeful. Hopeful of people, hopeful of friends, hopeful of relationships, hopeful of the good of people.

I stopped being so.

Someday, I wish the hope will come back to me. Yet I am wary that all the disappointments being hopeful might bring.

from ScarletTing's Out of My Mind

okie, i'm not alone. lolx.

i literally shut off blogger (my own) and blogspot/livej0urnal/xanga (friends) and facebook and even MSN so that i can put 100% concentration in to my MolGene mid-sem.

(okay, din manage to achieve 100% 'coz for me there is always SLEEP as one of my priorities.)

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molgene mid-sem is over.

well, at least i know how to do most of the question.

the key word here is, most. hahaa

whatever the result is, i'm glad one is down =]

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i went home with sore + sleepy eyes @.@

post-exam effect that is gonna take weeks to recuperate. hmph.

ha. wana catch some sleep but my housemate keeps bugging me abt some of her thought on other friends failing module, etc.

not that i'm not interested (for i have always been kay-poh), but i realize she will really bug me with the same topic if i don't appear to be occupied with work.

so i on my laptop and write this blog! lolx. hahaa. no link hor?

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went to facebook just now and realize my maxthon browser blocks facebook 'coz it constantly detects some errors =S brilliant. so who are those wei hong or alan chan that added me??

hmm, in case u wonder, facebook send ppl whole lot of notification to your e-mail inbox. okay, those option thingy can be edited. but i dunno how can? go ahead laugh laugh laugh all the way u want.

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this is hilarious: (taken from Zhang Ying's blog)

A conversation between “wood wood” BF & “gentle at heart” GF …

(international phone call)

BF: Hello

GF: U idiot! U gave me the wrong number… Why did u add a 0 in front of the 9? I called twice and couldn’t get through and I thought the uncle bluff me, actually this card cannot call… I even called the enquiry hotline and asked for the country code, then stupidly asked is it common to have a 0 before the 9 for handphone numbers in… And luckily ur intelligent GF went by my instinct and decided that there shouldn’t be a 0 before the 9, and finally got through… *blah blah blah*

BF: *SUPER taken back* Huh, who’s that?

GF: Eh u are… right? (oops can’t be called wrong number right…)

BF: Ya… *still in a daze*

GF: U dunno who I am? I’m ur GF lah.

BF: Why did u start scolding me once u got through, this is overseas call leh…

GF: Ya and u thought ur GF misses u so much, so definitely be very gentle when she calls u right? But I’m really so angry. U gave me a wrong number lor… *went on & on*

BF: *bo bian break into laughter* Hey, I want a refund. I thought I got a gentle GF.

GF: There’s no contract, ha…

(conversation finally became more “normal” after that)

friend iris said, cannot keep looking at such things. will make u wana fall in love blindly one.

lolx.

Love at a distance.

i realize i will need to have really enough sleep before i go to lab.

'coz i were to work with no one else but Tam.

i think our working style and attitude clash BIG time.

and if i didnt have enough sleep, i'll become very grumpy.

and when im very grumpy and he keeps giving me those hell-nvm-i'll-do-it-slowly and oh-i-got-no-coursework-no-assignment-due looks, i really have the urge to.....

BASH HIM UP!

&%^*&$^(&^$()^$@#^*^()*

i hope this night mare ends soon.

It's kindda ironic that after so many opinion seeked/ coin flipping/ "probability tests", you still decide on otherwise.

The Traveller's Gift

One of the NY Times Bestseller. (Okay, it very much depends on the reader, since most of the book out there will have the tag XXX bestseller thingy).

But i truly like this book. =)

When i grabbed it off from shelf back then, the word that caught my eyes was "traveller". Oh well, i shall admit, I'VE BEEN WANTED TO GO ON TRAVEL DURING WINTER BREAK. Oh well, that didnt happen. Oh well, at least for David Ponder, his journey was entertaining (and meaningful) enough that i finished reading the book in 1 day.

I shall not describe too much on how well is the plot and how captivating the story line are. (okay okay, my vocab sucks-lah!)

I would rather re-read the book again! Hahahaa.

See related.

单身潜逃

Been really moody lately despite it's just the second week of school starts.

And Penny's songs have been my remedy for that moody feeling. Music therapy? heh.


戴佩妮 单身潜逃
PS:我想我真的忘了,然而我不够坚强

我没有你想像中那么坚强
我只是擅长用微笑去伪装 不是吗
我没有你形容的那么勇敢
我偶尔也会慌

我也和你一样曾经年少轻狂受了一点伤
我们都是一样相信永远不远但坚持却有点难

就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃
带着现实的拷这点我善于的微笑
通往没有你的轨道

就让记忆中的你慢慢老
老去了谁也得不到
带着我的祈祷这点我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃

Listen it HERE.

Continuation from the previous entry.

And I like this even more.



"Whatis his race?"
"What is race?"
"Race is race car lar"

LOL! race car!
How I wish our people from our country are more unite irregardless of race.

It's gonna be our 51st birthday soon on 31st Aug =)
Can't wait for another nice ad for the celebration!

this is so awww....

i've gone through the induction course and hua-lah, i can start my project now. =)

although it's a 3-hour-so-damn-boring-oh-i-know-where-is-the-fire-extinguisher-and-the-first-aid-box-etc kindda 'course'.

i'm glad it's over.

to miss za bo (u know who u are)

happy birthday.

i have to made it really low profile. for both of us are those kind of people who dont like to be reminded abt our own birthday.

u know me that well also that u juz act blur on my bday. waahahaa. i appreciate that, really.

but i cant bring myself to act blur, ya know?! i miss talking to u and have mudpie together at nydc holland vi after midnight!

be happy ok. my sincere wish. to you.

yes. this is the like very first post that i'm gonna write abt my feeling after so long. been lazy and always dun-feel-like-writing mood predominating.

it really feels good coz after so long, when u called someone, and from the 'hello', they know it's you right away. i meean, after so long never talk on phone. like several months? oh well, probably it's not that long for some. but for me, yeah, i do think it's really very long already to count.

i miss all of u, dear friend and family. you are like an angel to me.

i really feel home sick these few days. i really do.

My friend ask me to blog abt my winter holiday, which i'm completely lazy abt it.

In a nutshell, i eat
and eaT
and eAT
and EAT

but nar, not like i've gained a lot of weight. i think i'm still quite light lifted except now i have some fatty acid plus triglycerides ard my waist. i think i will have a whole summer to burn that away. for now, i think it's more important to keep some- it's 6 deg minimum today, ya know!

oh well, that is procrastinate. i know. juz finding excuse-lah, it's holiday ok?

no pic. sorry. too lazy.

jdore